Friday, 27 March 2015


31.  Hot chocolate with marshmallows and whipped cream.

32.  Creme eggs.

33.  Making time to actually read my book.

34.  Sunshine.

35.  Painted nails.

36.  My new shoes, it's love.

37.  Counting down days.

38.  My phone calls with my sister on her way back from work.

39.  Feeling more inspired.

40.  Esme's passport photo, it is hilarious.

Happy Friday!

Wednesday, 25 March 2015


I thought I would share with you my skincare regime, if you can really call it that, because I always like to hear about new, or new to me anyway, products that might make my skin look amazing.  And I really need it as my skin is not getting the beauty sleep it needs--thank you whoever gave the worlds most awful cold to Ava.

I don't think I can really call this a regime because it is three really easy steps, because to be honest I can't really be bothered with doing a million steps as I don't have the time or inclination, I wish I did though.

So there are three steps: cleanser, serum and moisturiser.
My cleanser is the Botanics All Bright Micellar 3 in 1 cleansing solution.  You just pop some of this on a couple of cotton wool pads, wipe your face and you have said good bye to your makeup and any grime and dead skin cells.  It is quick, easy and also on deal quite a bit so you really can't go wrong.  
I was a bit late on the serum band wagon, probably because I had no idea that you could use a serum and moisturiser until I did a little bit of research recently.  Apparently this is where you should spend your money according to the beauty gurus.

I use the Vichy Aqualia Thermal serum.  This is supposed to give your skin serious all day hydration, making your skin all smooth, soft and radiant.  At the beginning I was a little sceptical but it does keep my skin hydrated and my skin is so much smoother.  Which means it makes putting my make-up on a dream, well I think it is due to this product because my makeup looks so much better when I have used this than when I don't.  
Finally my moisturiser is the Celestial facial moisturiser from Lush.  This is for dry sensitive skin I think, and is supposed to moisturise, moisturise, moisturise.  This moisturiser does moisturise but I do think it has a slightly weird smell but my skin seems to like it which is a massive plus.  My skin can be a little funny so if a product works I tend to stick with it.

And that is that.  

I think these three products have really helped revitalise my skin so much so that people have commented on it: go me!  I do this morning and night and it is nice to have a couple of minutes to just focus on me as that rarely seems to happen now.

I know what it like not to be bothered with doing more than one step, I was the queen of the face wipe, but it is really worth it.  If you just want to add one step go for a serum or a moisturiser and put it right by your bed so you can shove it on just before bed at the very least and your skin will thank you.

If you have any recommendations I am all ears: what products do you swear by?

Monday, 23 March 2015


At five months Esme:

- can roll from her front to her back and vice versa.  She loves to have a nosey at everything so you can see her rolling trying to get a better look.

- is so smiley and happy.  I love all her gummy smiles.  And her giggle, well it is adorable.

- is getting chubbier very day and I love it.

- has started eating some solids.  Milk just wasn't enough and she was taking such an interest in everyones food that I though I would give weaning a go, even though it is before the advised 6 months.  And she loves it and means that she is fuller for longer which is great.

- is quite happy to talk to herself in her cot for a while when she wakes up.  This is literally the opposite of Ava and I wish sometimes Ava would learn from Esme's example ;)

- is still teething and there are still not teeth but very white gums.  I had forgotten what a joy teething is but she is still so sweet that I don't mind if she need a few extra cuddles.

- is so relaxed and chilled still.

- loves playing with her toes.

- babbles on and likes to join in the convo.

- loves her sister so much.  Esme gives Ava the biggest smiles and seeing the two of them interact, well it melts my heart.

Esme, we are so proud of you and love you so much


Wednesday, 18 March 2015


There was a little girl,
Who had a little curl,
Right in the middle of her forehead.

When she was god,
She was very good indeed,
But when she was bad she was horrid.

*There was a little girl by Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

At the moment we are in the terrible twos and my, sometimes they can be terrible.  Sometimes with all the pushing the boundaries and tantrums all the amazing moments seem to get lost.  And of course there are lots of amazing moments.  I just can't get over how much Ava seems to have grown up in the last six months.  Her speech is clearer and clearer every day and her vocabulary just seems to be getting bigger and bigger.  

Apart from that around here has been rather quiet yet busy.  I feel like my weeks are split into two, the week and the weekend.  The weekends are more fun for sure.  But we have made some decisions and plans are in action and fingers crossed it will work out.  At the moment I am just reminded of that moment in the first Sex and the City film when Carrie says "Well, apparently you can go home again, but it will cost you."  I know deep down in my gut we are making the right decision, but my is it going to cost us, hopefully only in the short term though, I think I just need to get my head around it.

So we are moving again, I know I wrote here that I wasn't going to be moving again so feel feel to ridicule me because I was so wrong.  I should have listened to my gut instinct rather than my rationalising brain because my gut was right on target.  This time I have listened to it more than anything so fingers crossed it is just as right this time.

We are moving closer to London again for a whole host of reasons: because Jonny wants more than ten minutes a day with the girls; because I would like to have evenings with my husband; because we would like to see our friends more and just because we want to.  We tried and gave it a go but it wasn't for us.  So there you have it.

I know this might sound a little bit self indulgent and self obsessed but this a personal blog so how much more self indulgent and self obsessed could I get?  The last six months have been tough and are still testing us but I can now see the light at the end of the tunnel.  During these last six months I have felt that I have just closed little bits of myself off.  Just little bits here and there because it makes plastering the smile on that little bit easier and it means I can just keep the lid of the can of worms that I was too scared to open.  Sometimes it seems easier to pretend things are ok even when they aren't: does that make sense?

And that all makes it sound worse and more dramatic than it was, because it wasn't like I was going through cancer or something terrible so I feel like I shouldn't moan.  But here I am anyway, it wasn't my proudest moments and I feel bad that Ava realised I was upset.  My mother guilt, well on that issue is unbelievably massive but hopefully I will come to terms with it at some point...

But after opening that can of worms and talking and talking to Jonny and his responses and a whole host of support from my parents and my brother and sister and friends, well I feel so much better and like little bits of me are coming back and I feel like me again, which makes me so happy and relieved.

So now after that long rambling post you are up to date.

How have you been?
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